long distance, part two....

Last night I enjoyed my pet again. I have to remind myself to be more gentle over the net... I tend to be far more sadistic online than in person, not a good idea. To put it in the most simple terms, I want to keep my girl, not chase her off. I love her very much, and miss her horribly.

Last night I had her do what I term "a devotion". It's a very simple concept, set up a scenario, where she can do something to please herself, nothing, or something that she will hate but I will love. Honestly, nothing is the worst of these three options, but I will get to that in a minute. Some examples of this, would be, she is only allowed to use her hands on her pussy, or use both hands on her tits, or only allowed to touch the butt plug which is currently inside of her. Her actions show me how badly she wants to show her devotion at that moment. I -will not- punish her no matter what she does during a devotion. Using the first example, she could turn her hands over, press the wrists against her pussy, and flip me off with both hands, and I could not punish her, however, I would be quite disappointed and more than a bit offended. More often than not, my girl will do her utmost to please me, regardless of what she believes that to be. Last night she began begging me to tell her how to better please me, while doing a devotion, and then proceeded to do every thing I suggested. This is where I remind any one reading this, that I am a sadist.
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All of the above probably sounds more than a bit abusive, mentally, emotionally, and obviously physically. My only defense for myself is this, if I were to try to show my devotion to my girl, if I were to try to show my girl how far I was willing to go to prove I loved her, I would probably end up completely naked, on my knees, offering her the crop I have used on her so often. (Don't get me wrong, part of me is EXCEEDINGLY happy that she will never ask this of me) I do love my girl far more than I can express.
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But to continue about last night. I had a very nice orgasm while using her on cam. Part of the male anatomy is the coma that comes after a strong orgasm, if you don't physically fight against it. Most women have no clue about how hard it is to fight or how serious the drowsiness is. That being said, I did fall asleep almost immediately, then proceeded to wake up through the night, to watch my girl sleep on webcam. I honestly love watching her sleep, she is adorable. (I know, kinda creepy and more than a little sappy, what can I say?) I read her blog today and found out she felt a bit abandoned during that part of the night, and I never meant her to feel that way. That is another thing about the net that is a problem, were she here, even if I had fallen asleep right away, it would have been with my arms around her, not around a stuffed rabbit that she left her for the summer. (to any one reading this, there is an image for you, an old, perverted, sadistic man, with his arms wrapped lovingly around a blue, plush, stuffed bunny....)
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And with that last image, I will bid you a goodnight.
I love you very much my girl, and I cannot wait to have you back in my arms again.

-Thoma
aka Shade

Long Distance....

My girl has gone back to her grandparents house for the summer. College months are going to be fun next year. I will only need to roll over to wrap my arms around her at night, she will be living with me. This summer however will be a test of willpower. Last night I enjoyed her via webcam. To be honest the options when using a pet over the cam, while she is in the same house as her grandparents are limited. Luckily she has access to a nearly soundproof area and her grandparents appear to sleep like the dead. It's late and I will probably write more at a later time, though with her five hours away, I don't know how often I will have much to write..