The Shackled Monster

To clarify, no, I'm not talking about my slave. I would never call her a monster. I am talking about that part of my mind, that is sadistic. That part of my mind that wants to see another person degraded, abused, tortured, hurt, crying, and honestly not enjoying it.
On a day to day basis, I keep that monster shackled tightly in the back of my mind. If you met me on the street or at a social function, you would never guess it was even there. You would never look at this person who takes care of his friends, works with children, and seems to be generally kind, and think he would ever want to see another human tied to the floor covered in shallow but very painful bruises, wimpering and crying for him to stop hurting them.
The shackles on that monster are very tight and only released when it is safe to do so. This is one of the reasons why I love my slave as much as I do. She knows this part of my mind exists and will actually ask for me to let it loose. She does not like pain. Honestly, she is not a masochist in the normal sense, pain is pain to her, not pleasure. Her only pleasure is in seeing me enjoy myself. She is a true and devoted submissive, and I love her more each day for that.
I have of course, explained all of this to her. I have explained that in the past I have released one or two of the four shackles holding that monster down while playing with a previous slave, but never more than that. She seems to understand that even though I could cage that monster indefinitely if I needed to, that it is relaxing and enjoyable to let it play.

Tonight and the next night I am working 15 hour long over night shifts. Between these shifts and a bit of sleep, I won't see her for more than two days. I believe that when I do see her again, I might just release two of the shackles and hand her the key to the third, in case she is feeling brave. I have already told her that she is to show up at my home when we can finally see eachother again wearing nothing but a one peice dress that comes to mid thigh. Also that night, we are going to go to a local resort where there is a hot tub, pool and sauna, for a little bit of relaxation, and play, if we can manage when no one is looking...


or maybe when they are... *wicked grin*